What is this place?
A diary.
I want this blog to be a place where I can be vulnerable. A place where I can freely express myself. Where I can talk about my worries and my life. A place where I can talk about my fears. And where I can maybe learn about how to face them.
I've not been doing well lately. I feel like I'm failing in most things I do. Or worst I don't even try to do them.
I'm starting to lose a lot of friends. I feel alone, like an alien among my loved ones. I stopped to do what is important to me. Am I becoming a bad person?
That's why I'm avoiding my friends. That's why I'm not posting anymore. Because I'm scared that what I am isn't going to please others. But that have to change.
That's why I want to make this blog a place to remember my mistakes. Also place to look at what I once did right. A guide that I could follow in the future if I ever needed it. Somewhere full of memories that I want to not forget about.
And maybe words that could help someone who needs it.
But I feel like I'm failing at that too lately. I'm thinking too much about what others would want to read. And end up posting nothing that I would need to write. Or I post nothing at all.
I need to make sure that I remember that this place is mostly for me. It's something to read when I feel lost and alone. Something to read when I'm not really sure of what I'm even supposed to be.
Let's just course-correct. Which is what I started to do right now.
This is for you Muliama.
Thanks for reading - Your own self